Look. I'm about to have a kid of my own. It would kill me if he went through his whole life never understanding me.

听着，我自己的孩子已即将出生，他若不了解我，我会很痛苦。

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And if someone was doing it better than me it would kill me.

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"I felt certain that if there wasn't a diagnosis, I felt that it was pretty certain that it would kill me, " she says.

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How much it would kill me if I really did quit.

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