She calls him "that man." Faulkner says that nothing can be had without love.

VOA: special.2010.01.10

She was misattributing her own fear as mutual attraction, " as "And I must love him."

把她自己的恐惧当成了对他的爱，“我一定爱他“

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But she says she began to love him because he was a nice man.

VOA: special.2010.05.23