只是有时我一想起就感到难过。

Only sometimes when I think about it, I feel very sad.

youdao

有些伤口，无论过多久，依然一碰就痛；有些人，不管过多久，也还是一想起就疼。

Some wounds, whether long before, still a tender; Some people, no matter how long, or think of hurt.

youdao

一想起它我就心惊肉跳。

It makes my flesh creep to think of it.

《柯林斯英汉双解大词典》

But for a long time I was chastened whenever I remembered that my mother had come close to killing me.

然而很长一段时间里,一想起母亲过来揍我,我就会很听话，“

耶鲁公开课 - 1945年后的美国小说课程节选

Then I want to note the transition that happens at the very bottom of this page after he says, "I was chastened whenever I remembered that my mother had come close to killing me."

我想强调的是,这页最下面的转折，在他说完“一想起母亲过来揍我,我就会很听话“之後“

耶鲁公开课 - 1945年后的美国小说课程节选