这些我也不想多说了——说起来我就肝肠欲断。

I cannot say more about this - it makes me too miserable.

youdao

最后，还得开始吟唱，低垂着脑袋，颤抖的声音，- - -但是我极其敏锐地意识到，在这屋子里，再没有人比我对于这表演更为肝肠欲断的了。

And at last, with bowed head and quavering voice I would have to make a beginning — but too keenly conscious that to none else in the room but me was this performance sufficiently heartrending.

youdao