我不想爱我的人来承受痛苦，于是我选择出卖了自己的自由。

I do not want to love my people to bear the pain, so I chose to sell their own freedom.

youdao

发生这样的事，我真的需要一些时间来难过、怀疑自己、做激烈的思想斗争、反思这一年的点点滴滴，我需要一段时间来接收和承受这个事实。

I really need some time for this to be sad, be suspicious of my ability, have a battlesofideal and think all happenings in the year over to find out what's the real problem.

youdao