我也许经历了那个悲苦的夜晚——那时，在祈祷了几天自己将死去之后，我开始害怕自己真的命不久矣，又开始祈祷自己要活下去。

I may have already had the night of misery when, having prayed for several days that I might die, I had begun to be afraid that I was dying and prayed that I might live.

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我知道我最先是要5百万来着，但当我开始写这封信的时候，我的财政状况又进一步恶化，大势已去矣。

I know that I originally asked for five, but since I started writing this letter my financial situation has deteriorated in grave and unexpected ways.

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子濯孺子曰：‘今日我疾作，不可以执弓，吾死矣夫！’

Zi Zhuo Ru said, "To-day I feel unwell, so that I cannot hold my bow. I am a dead man!"

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