当我没有钱的时候，无法给汽车加油的时候，没有工作的时候，我的水电被掐断的时候，我真想自杀。
I attempted suicide when I had no money, no gas for my car, no job, no food, and my electric and water had been shut off. Only by some fluke of nature or whatever you want to call it did I survive.
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