我想消失在这个世界，永远的消失。

I would like to disappear in this world, forever disappear.

youdao

有时候，我想消失一下，然后看看你是否会想念我。

Sometimes, I want to disappear, and then see if you will miss me.

youdao

有时候，我想消失一下，然后看看是否会有人想念我。

Sometimes I want to disappear and see if anyone would miss me.

youdao

That piece of it, which is gone when the second half disappears, that piece of it is what he tries to communicate in a very condensed way.

这段后来消失了，他是想通过简洁明了,的方式来讲述。

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