是因为那药，我控制不了笑。

It's the medication. I can't stop smiling.

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因为一个医药失误，我没有得到任何止痛药，那五天里我所经历的疼痛是如此剧烈而残酷，如果当时我有能力的话很可能就自我了断了。

Because of a medical mistake, I was not given any pain medication, and the suffering I experienced was so severe and unrelenting for five days that I would have taken my life if I had had the means.

youdao