At eleven, I was one of the oldest kids there, and yet, I didn't feel as grown up as I perceived others to be.

当时11岁的我已经算是那儿最大的孩子，却觉得自己其实并不如其他人成熟。

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He was starting to feel as unloved as he had the day of his ninth birthday, when only two of the eleven invited guests showed up to his party, a pair of twins who took off their shirts and came together at the arm to show where they had been separated.

NEWYORKER: The Valetudinarian