But for the mirror of my deed, I might have pulled the trigger and ended my pain, but from the corner of my eye I caught a glimpse of my desperate reflection in the window, and felt compelled to turn.

如果不是在镜子里看见自己影子的话，我早就扣动扳机结束自己的痛苦了，因为在镜子里，我看到了自己眼神里的绝望。实在无法忍受下去，我不禁回过头去。

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Back on Kimball Mountain, with trigger pulled, the elk herd disperses, except for my cow.

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"My parents contemplated buying a place in the South and never pulled the trigger, " Mr. Howard said.

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