She even apologized for not lending me money, which I understood quite well after her maquereau had been pointed out to me.

她还为没能借给我钱道歉，这我完全能理解，因为后来她把她的鸨母指给我看了。

youdao

Thus, even when believing him to be in peril, they understood, I will not say his thought, but his nature, to such a degree that they no longer watched over him.

我不说她们能了解他的思想，但是她们了解他的性格，因而即使知道他是在危险中，也只好不过问。

youdao

I stayed smiling because even at a young age, I understood the importance of pretending to not have emotions.

我的笑容凝固了，因为即便在青少年时期，我也知道假装不露声色的重要性。

youdao

Of course, I had not understood or even particularly noticed these changes at the time.

NEWYORKER: Gravel