No one believed me and just thought I was trying to be funny.

没人相信我，他们都觉得我在开玩笑。

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For many years I believed that God was the one who was heaping shame on me. I was certain he was disappointed with me, and no matter how many times I asked for forgiveness, I still had shame.

很多年以来，我都以为上帝只是在我的身上堆满了愧疚，而我也很确定地以为祂对我很失望，并且不管我祈求多少次祂的原谅，我都还是感觉羞愧。

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