I realized that it could become a part of my life if I fought against my self-hatred and pessimism.

我认识到，如果我与我的自憎和厌世作斗争，它就能成为我生命的一部分。

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I hated my life because it was not a reflection of my true self. I was living a lie and that was why I was miserable.

我恨自己，恨自己的生活，因为这不是自我真实的反应，我生活在伪装中，这是我真正痛苦的根源。

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I then looked back at my life, recalled some painful memories and realized that along the way I got the impression that if I expressed my true self no one would care for me.

回头看过去的生活，想起了很多痛苦的记忆，终于意识到，当我表现出真实的自己时，没有人会在意我。

youdao

So the personal struggle of living in a more unified, faith life in my whole being and bringing that self to the public square.

因此，我致力于,在我的一生中拥有更加统一的信仰生活,并且努力将这个统一的自己融入公共场合。

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