My personal trigger is looking at my hands (which always look deformed in dreams).

我个人的触发器看着我的手(总是看变形在梦里)。

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And as I stare at them, I realize I am no longer looking at those hands but feeling them as they shaped my youth.

在我端详这双手的时候，我发现自己不再是看这双手，而是在感觉这双塑造我青春的手。

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If I could grip the bars with both hands and pull myself up, I could look at my sleeping mama and dada, instead of looking at the never changing ceiling.

如果我能够双手抓住栏杆把自己拉起来，我就能看到我熟睡的爸爸妈妈，而不是老看著那一成不变的天花板。

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