Slowly I realised, if it hurts so much, why even say goodbye?

慢慢地，我认识到，如果伤害这么多，为什么还要说再见？

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As a teenager I'd been angry and upset and wanted to meet them for the wrong reason - to ask them why they'd abandoned me - but as I matured I realised they obviously felt they couldn't cope.

整个青少年时代，愤怒和失落一直伴随着我，我一直很想见到他们，为着一个错误的理由——我想问他们当初为何把我丢弃。但是当我变得越来越成熟的时候，我意识到他们确实也无能为力。

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Mr Abdallah: The reason why I left for Kenya was because I have realised my son was misled into believing that he was fighting in a holy war.

BBC: Kenya arrests: Cardiff father claims son 'brainwashed'