I don't believe my mother would have the will to find another companion, and I feel it is unfair of me to stir up turmoil when I myself am a drain on the family at the moment.

我认为我的妈妈没有要找另一个伴侣的意思，我感觉在此时作为一名家庭成员要是引起一场骚动的话对我来说是不正直的。

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Even in my own, non-celebrity life, I sometimes feel that making eye contact with a person can give a jolt of energy, or more often, drain some energy away.

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