i decided to leave because of fear because my fate is not in my own hands first of all i need to gain the experience of life but not indulge in xian dialect and the applause
我决定离开是因为害怕,因为我的命运不是掌握在我自己手中,首先我需要获得生活的经验,而不是沉迷于西安话和掌声
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