I would much rather go through that gangly, awkward phase where you're not sure about certain social boundaries than spend the rest of my life feeling disconnected from the society I live in.

我宁愿参与进可能并不怎么适合的集体，也不远把余下的生命用来感受与我所在社会的遥远。

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Maybe he was ready to drown rather than admit defeat and come up again, feeling awkward and cheated.

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