I have prayed to God for help in being straightforward with people, and not say anything that might get back to someone who could be hurt by my words.

我祈求过老天帮忙，让我为人直率，不说可能会传到别人耳朵里伤害他们的话。

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I knew that I had a facility with words and a power of facing unpleasant facts, and I felt that this created a sort of private world in which I could get my own back for my failure.

我知道我有驾驭语言的才能和直面令人不快的现实的能力。这一切似乎造就了一个私人的天地，在此天地中我能挽回我在日常生活中的不得意。

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I knew that I had a facility with words and a power of facing unpleasant facts, and I felt that this created a sort of private world in which I could get my own back for my failure in everyday life.

我知道我有遣词用字的才能，也有面对不快事情的能耐，而我认为这给我创造了一个私人的世界，供我在人生中失意时寻回自己。

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