尽管厚厚一打量表、尽管数年的诊断毫无变化，我已试图让自己对一个事实保持清醒——那就是今天对我、对他或她都是特殊的一天。

In spite of foot thick charts, in spite of diagnoses which haven't changed for years, I've tried to keep myself open to the fact that today is a unique day for me and him or her.

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我停在了那儿，深深地吸了口气，试图清醒我的脑子。

I stand still and breathe deeply, trying toclear my head.

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我想四处走动，试图让大脑变得清醒，结果膝盖撞上了咖啡桌、椅子和其他东西，我已经回想不起当时的情形。

I attempted to walk and pace to clear my head but my knees met with the coffee table, the chair, and a few other things I can't even recall.

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