我总觉得在我生命里面，是有一种力量在驱使我做这件事情的，如果我不去做，不知道为什么，心里就会非常得难受，感觉自己对不起某种东西。

I may be a fatalist and I always feel that an unknown power in my body is driving me to do this, if I don't do it, I have no idea why I feel very suffering and sorry for certain things.

youdao

其实我身体非常难受，可是我心里想：这是我在初中的最后一次校运会，无论如何，我都要画上一个句号。

In fact my body is very uncomfortable, but I thought: This is my last junior high school athletic meets, in any case, I have to draw to an end.

youdao