Ok oneself can retreats, think previously some of his own the impulse of the behavior, really funny, now again feel very embarrassed.

还好自己可以全身而退，想想先前自己的一些冲动的行为，真的很好笑，现在又感觉很难堪。

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People it is a contradiction and entanglements, on the one hand, didn't want her embarrassed, because oneself but bad to pursue their happiness, on the one hand, and put no hands.

人真是矛盾和纠结，一方面不想让她为难，因为自己而不好去追求自己的幸福，一方面又放不了手。

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