Maybe I can get it back, but I dont want it back.

或许我可以挽回这一切。但我已经不再想挽回。

youdao

But I dont want to live my life, esp. this normal life so long.

可是，我并不想如此平庸的活那么长。

youdao

I have to give up, only to find themselves a wider sky, however, then the vast sky, but I dont want blue.

我已经放弃了，才发现自己有更广阔的天空，但是，那么广阔的天空，却没有我想要的蓝。

youdao

But I dont want to imply that I was dealing with drug dealers or nuclear traffickers.

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