Always cannot abandon expectation in the heart, clearly know all this without end, still could not put you in heart and with bitterness torment yourself.

总不能放弃心中的期待，明明知道这一切没有结局，还是忍不住把你放在心里，苦苦的折磨自己。

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He had been worn out by her, Lei had said toward the end of the marriage, not without bitterness.

NEWYORKER: Alone