I spent many nights sitting up alone, wishing I could die right then and there and feeling much darker inside than the black night outside my window.

很多个不眠的夜晚，我独自坐着，希望我当时就可以死去，和我的内心比起来，窗外的黑夜显反而得很明朗。

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I drew a coffin, lie inside you and she. I kind-hearted, let you die together.

我画了一个棺材，里面躺着你和她。我多么善良，让你们死也在一起。

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I felt like I was going to die from having my inside shaken apart, and I couldn't stop crying or end the thought that kept going through my head.

我的五脏六腑快碎裂了，我觉得我快死了。我无法抑制住哭泣，也无法终止我脑中反复出现的想法。

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