I suppose I sometimes used to act like I wasn't a human being... sometimes I look back at myself and remember things I used to say, or my hairstyle, and I cringe.

我觉得自己过去有时行为举止不像是人类…有时回过头来，想想自己说过的话或者留过的发型，都觉得后怕。

youdao

John, I'm really sorry that I overreacted and would like to meet with you to apologize in person and make a commitment to never allow myself to act that way in the future.

约翰，我非常抱歉自己反应过度了，我想当面和你道个歉并保证自己再不会这样了。

youdao

Sometimes I would overhear myself in the act of speech, like a man who suddenly sees himself in a mirror.

NEWYORKER: History of a Disturbance