然而，对我来说，最值得关注的/最年夜的挑战不是我的愿望现实与否的问题，而是我若何提高自己的能力将它变为现实。
To me, however, the greatest concern/challenge is not the matter of the grounds for my aspiration, but of capacities to be increased for making it a reality.
我怎么知道它不是我自己的愿望或者甚至是从撒旦而来的谎言？
How do I know it's not my own desire or even a lie from Satan?
这也不是一时的意兴；从此以后我对野外鲜花的喜好和认识它们的愿望再也没有失去过。
Nor was it a passing humor; never since have I lost my pleasure in the flowers of the field and my desire to know them all.
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