我们不曾注定如此生活。

We weren't meant to live like this.

youdao

我亲手杀了自己的母亲。杀死亲人的痛苦，我无法再承受。可是，命中注定如此，我又有什么办法呢？

I personally killed my own mother. Pain and sufferings that kills close relatives, I can not bear again. But, in the clout predestined, what way do I have again?

youdao

我记得最后一行——那里我写着“我们不曾注定如此生活”——是怎样引来你眼中的一滴眼泪，接着你转向我们的儿子，努力向他解释我走了。

I remember how the last line, where I say "we weren't meant to live like this," brought a tear to your eye and you turned to our son and tried to explain to him that I was gone.

youdao