We're told later that he stops sleeping with her because he just can't get it out of his mind. He'd rather sit and wonder.

我们之后直到了他不再和她睡觉因为,他无法摆脱自己奇怪的想法，他宁愿坐着瞎想。

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Well, when you do picture it, there's that room in your mind's eye. You've got a little picture of people sitting around the table perhaps, discussing the business of your club. Uh-oh, I've smuggled myself in as a spectator.

当你真的开始想象时，脑子里就会浮现出一个房间,人们围桌而坐，讨论俱乐部种种事宜，看，我又将自己作为旁观者带入其中了。

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