A boy who's bullied by his father may hate his father and want to hurt him but since this would--this is very shameful and difficult.

屈于父亲权威下的男孩,可能会憎恨他的父亲，想要伤害父亲,但这个想法是可耻的，也是难以实现的。

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I think you'll find it very useful to use "I hate".

你会发现“I hate”句型非常好用。

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