我曾经以为我已经从过去的阴影走出来了，但现在才发现原来过去仍影响着自己，这种伤痛就像疟疾，或者，永远是一种打击。

To believe you have cured yourself of the past and then to discover that its ill effects continue, that its pains recur like malaria-that, perhaps, is always a shock.

youdao

我曾经以为我已经从过去的阴影走出来了，但现在才发现原来过去仍影响着自己，这种伤痛就像疟疾，或者，永远是一种打击。

To believe you have cured yourself of the past and then to discover that its ill effects continue, that its pains recur like malaria-that, perhaps, is always a shock.

youdao