当时我也很矛盾，总想掩盖过去算了，谁知道还会有这样难堪的结果！

I wanted to cover up and paint over everything with conflicting feelings.

youdao

我很清楚对方的方方面面，不仅是美好的一面，也包括其能力局限、矛盾个性、和性格缺陷。

I'm aware of the many sides of the other person -not just the beautiful side but also the limitations, inconsistencies and flaws.

youdao

在梦中我似乎是在寻找一件东西，但我自己也不知道我是在寻找什么，我甚至很矛盾，我为什么要出现在这里，我又为什么要找那样的东西？

I am in a dream seems to be looking for something, but I do not know what I was looking for, I even contradictory, why do I have to appear in here, I find out why things?

youdao

在梦中我似乎是在寻找一件东西，但我自己也不知道我是在寻找什么，我甚至很矛盾，我为什么要出现在这里，我又为什么要找那样的东西？

I am in a dream seems to be looking for something, but I do not know what I was looking for, I even contradictory, why do I have to appear in here, I find out why things?

youdao