也许我觉得我的生活中不值得遇到某些如此之好的东西吧，而且我正在等待某事——或者是我——把事情给搞砸。

Maybe I don't feel that I deserve something so good in my life, and I'm waiting for something - or me - to mess it up.

youdao

即使我曾想着要等待，如果那就是我的生活所依，我是不能保守秘密这么长时间的。

Even if I had wanted to wait I couldn't keep a secret that long if my life depended on it.

youdao

即使我曾想着要等待，如果那就是我的生活所依，我是不能保守秘密这么长时间的。

Even if I had wanted to wait, I couldn't keep a secret that long if my life depended on it.

youdao