尽管我很平静，我真的不觉得生活那么搞笑了，照我做的做如果我更痛苦和紧张。

And although I'm calm, I don't really find life as funny as I do if I'm more miserable and tense.

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和你不觉得你有你的伴侣幸免的痛苦，失去自己心爱的。

And don't you think you have spared your partner the suffering of loosing his beloved.

youdao

高兴的感觉不知不觉地渐渐变为痛苦的感觉。

Sensations of pleasure glided into sensations of pain.

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