我知道我的幸福牢牢地握在自己的手中，有实实在自的根基而不虚无。

I know my happiness is held firmly in my hands and it is with its real root in the fertile soil, but not in the air.

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When he's in the army, he can get rid of Jesus by converting not to evil, but to nothing, to believe in nothing.

当他当兵的时候，以不去向罪恶堕落，选择做一个虚无主义者的方式。

耶鲁公开课 - 1945年后的美国小说课程节选

There is a vagueness to this language that I think is quite calculated, and it relates, in Haze's case, to his determination to not be converted to evil, but to nothing.

他的语言有种刻意而为的模糊感,对他来说，这与他不向罪恶堕落，宁可选择虚无的决心有关系。

耶鲁公开课 - 1945年后的美国小说课程节选