至今我也不愿接受他永远不回来看我，丢下了他爱的儿女、丢下了他疼爱的外孙、丢下了一切的一切！

So far I do not want to accept that he never came back to see me, leave a love of sons and daughters, leaving his beloved grandson, leaving all in all!

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若我不愿意做一粒麦子落在地里死去(脱离以往的一切生活方式)，那我就还是丝毫不懂加略山的爱。

If I refuse to be a corn of wheat that falls into the ground and dies (" is separated from all in which it lived before "), then I know nothing of Calvary love.

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