而我获得了一种力量，这种力量像一个神秘的武器把我彻底改变了，我变得如此坚定，那种从前和托尼相处时所产生的困惑感完全消失了。

I was attaining a new power, like a secret weapon. I felt like a different person, a hardliner, not confused or out of my depth as I had been when I'd been hanging around with Tony in Broadmoor.

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他们和经历创伤的幸存者所经历的感觉过程一样：自我失落，困惑，最后获得一种新的驾驭感。

They cycle through the same sequence of sensations as do trauma survivors: self-loss, confusion and, finally, a new sense of mastery.

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尊重人的主观能动性和创造性，以及体会人在命运感下的一种困惑或自在，是本文的一个尝试。

Esteem the individual's initiative and creativity, and experience the baffle or freedom under fatal sense, it is the author's attempt.

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