I have not talked about this issue is because of the sad memories, write too here, I has been bitterly.

我一直不敢提及这个问题，是因为伤心的回忆，写到这里，已经有泪。

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I examined myself bitterly, and then found that except the time spend on job and unavoidable social activities; most of my time has been wasted.

我痛自反省，我发现，除了职务上的必须及人情上所不能免的活动外，我的时间大部分都浪费了。

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