But having to place myself into a different reality, engage in those decisions, and "live" with the result led to an understanding of the point much deeper than any I have achieved before.

但是，把自己置身于一个不同的现实情境，参与那些决定，“活在”其中，使我对此问题的理解比任何时候都要深刻的多。

youdao

Yet, for various reasons, I disappoint myself and engage in actions that are not only detrimental to my plans, but may even prevent my dreams from coming to pass.

我令自己失望，我的种种行为，不仅对我的计划有害，甚至还阻止我实现梦想。

youdao

I really do not know how to engage in some of my own, and obviously he has chosen to make this optional why to torture myself?

我真的有些搞不懂我自己了，明明自己已经作出选了择为什么还要这样的去折磨自己呢？

youdao

Alternative options for the current mention of the Queen include having "serve the Queen" instead of "serve my Queen", or "engage myself with responsibility in the community I live in" or "be true to my country".

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