Other than a miniscule satisfaction to my ego brought on by being in the head of the class, I found nothing else to be proud of. So it is inevitable that I was tortured by a feeling of inferiority.

除了学习成绩名列前茅带给我一点微不足道的虚荣心满足之外，我发觉自己在其它方面竟没有值得自豪的长处，因此难免会受到自卑的折磨。

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If we seek the satisfaction of our ego, our third eye (seat of our intuition) will not open up.

如果我们追求外在自我的成就。我们的第三眼（眉心轮-我们的直觉）将不会打开。

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