I would please myself with the hopes of it, and after looking at it steadily, till I was almost blind, would lose it quite, and sit down and weep like a child, and thus increase my misery by my folly.

我会请与它自己的希望，以后看它稳步推进，直到我几乎失明，就会失去它相当，并坐下来哭泣得像个孩子，从而增加了我的愚蠢我的痛苦。

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I would please myself with the hopes of it, and after looking at it steadily, till I was almost blind, would lose it quite, and sit down and weep like a child, and thus increase my misery by my folly.

我会请与它自己的希望，以后看它稳步推进，直到我几乎失明，就会失去它相当，并坐下来哭泣得像个孩子，从而增加了我的愚蠢我的痛苦。

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